# 11  of 15 Ways to leave the prison of depression.

ELEVEN

“I make a daily inventory of all my positive strengths. I tended to magnify the worst in everything in my life and make mountains for  molehills. I will focus on my stars and not my scars.” Believing is Seeing. pgs. 57-59.

As therapist, and with a new counselee beginning  therapy, I always asked them one question,  simply  put, was to have them list their  strengths. I  suggested  for them  to  list no more  than five.  With  a pencil and paper in their hands I waited to see what they had listed as strengths. I waited. And I waited some more. ( I might add that this was my format for anyone who made an appointment to talk about their experiences  with depression.)

After a bit, I them asked if they could share with me the strengths that they had put down on paper. Sheepishly, they told me that they were unable to mention any “stars” or personal strengths. “None came to mind” was their answer. But over time, when the fog of pain disappeared, their list  of strengths were gradually  unearthed and these strengths began to lengthen with each new meeting.

One of the realities that stands out in our lives when depressed is that we see everything  in dark colors. Nothing looks hopeful. There does not appear to be a light at the end of the tunnel  –  we do not have a friend in  the world. We feel we will never feel good again. The list goes on and on.

“By the fact that you are reading this, (Believing is Seeing) takes the strength to want to feel good and continue to maintain a positive recovery.  Begin now and reflect on your strengths. Believe that you have the strength to   maintain them  each  day. Your personal strengths maintain  a personal persistence and a desire to continue with gratitude this new feeling of hope.” pg. 59.

For an added resource  one can also use the Depressed Anonymous Workbook  as an excellent resource in  discovering our  ” stars” that are /or have been part of our lives before we became frozen in the fear and hurt of our depression.

SOURCE:  Copyright(c) Believing is Seeing: 15 ways to leave the Prison of Depression. (2016) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. Pages 57-59.

Copyright (c)   The Depressed Anonymous Workbook. (2002) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville.

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” I have an absolute certainty gained by my meetings, my friends in the program, and the literature that I read, that I can get better. I have this feeling in me that since this universe is operating on a regular harmonious  principle of  unity, I need to run on the same principle. The principle that I want to guide my life on today is that I can indeed be hopeful if I want to be. My depression, if allowed free reign, could lead to worse scenarios where my life is now.”

CLARIFICATION OF THOUGHT

“The more conscious I am of God being in charge of this universe and it seems to be operating on its own pretty well, the more we want to try and let go of controlling everyone’s life  and world. We pray that our Higher Power will guide us beyond the limits of our absolute beliefs and into  a new world where we can be a different person and free.”

SOURCE:  Copyright(c) Higher Thoughts for Down Days: 365 Daily Thoughts and Meditations for Members of 12 step Fellowships. (2007) Depressed Anonymous Publications. Louisville. Pages 145, 146. July 21.

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“One of the best ways to break our dependency on our sadness is to share/admit our depression to members of the Depressed Anonymous groups. We know how depression flourishes and grows strong in the privacy and solitude of our minds. Depression gradually dies in the light of open sharing and frank discussion. ” ‘We are only as weak as the secrets we keep.’ “ Believing is seeing. Pages 39-40

“An addictive depression has an energy all of its own; it feeds on itself and on our attempt to overcome it, just as any addiction does. We become accustomed to it, addicted to being depressed. And even though it feels awful, we cling to it because it givers us a solid sense of self. For most of us the attachment is a transient one that follows certain blows to our egos; we wind up kicking ourselves out of it before it goes on too long. Others go into therapy and try to find a somewhat better self-image to substitute. But some of us make a lifelong habit of it; it is how we really feel about ourselves, way down deep.”

SOURCE: Addiction and grace: Love and grace in the healing of addictions. Dr. Gerald May. Harper San Francisco.1989.

This is a quote from the 7th Way of Believing is seeing: 15 ways to leave the prison of depression. Hugh Smith. 2017. Pages 40-41.

The 7th way out of depression.

“Today is all that I have. Don’t let dwelling on yesterday’s hurts and fears about tomorrow, rob  you of peace today. Contrary to what you might have thought  –you are responsible for how you think and feel.”

SOURCE: Believing is seeing: 15 ways to leave the prison of depression. DAP. Louisville. pgs 38-39.

“Now that  we have learnt how to take care of ourselves and our recovery, we now believe that we are responsible for finding a way out of depression. We can blame our sadness on our genes, hormones or a chemical imbalance.  All this takes full responsibility for finding and using that map which points the way out of the darkness of depression. Since we have been involved in the 12 step program of recovery we continue to learn the “how” of working our way out of our sadness in the context of the fellowship of the group.

The best way to live TODAY is to be fully conscious of the present moment and create that  strong desire to be part of it.  Let’s not live in yesterday – the rent can kill ya.

How often  do I spend time  in tomorrow and so miss the joy of today? I think one of the more serious occupations (aren’t they all serious?) of the depressed is to just sit and think, and think and think some more about how bad life is and what awful people they are. This self-bashing makes one’s ability to change ever more difficult, as continued depressive ruminations promote a great sense of unworthiness and confusion. We feel that we have no control over what happens in our daily life. Actually, we are not so sure that we should care. Everything seems hopeless. Living in yesterday is to pay some high priced rent –and when you’re done paying the rent, you still have nothing to show for it.”

NOTE:  The 2nd half of # 7 will be continued tomorrow.

An excerpt for BELIEVING IS SEEING

“Keep physically fit is a must for us who are and who have been depressed. My walking not only restores harmony to the body but it restores my self-esteem and self-confidence. One of the major areas to remember  when someone says that they are depressed is to recommend that they get some physical exercise. So many times when we find that we are depressed, feel listless and lacking energy we tend to recoil from any activity that attempts to force us out of our isolation and inactivity. At one time our lives, any task or type of activity, even the smallest might have been cause for happiness and a continued life of productivity. When we are depressed , we just want  to lie down and sleep.  We feel that we have no mastery in our life, thoughts and future. What we forget is that this is the innate nature of depression. We believe that there is no use in getting active because we just can’t get the energy to even attempt anything that requires a positive response.

Mastery is what we gain when  we force ourselves to get out of bed, get going and start an exercise program on a regular basis.

“Walking is  a very efficient exercise,” Dr. Leach asserts, “especially in terms of toning muscles and giving people a good feeling.”

Dr. Ralph Wharton, another psychiatrist tells us that “going for a walk prevents excessive preoccupation and rumination, and it distracts you from your own inner concerns.— after all you have to look where you are going.” Prevention Magazine, June 1985, Pg. 95.

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I can state for a fact,  walking  gradually helped clear my mind   of the fog that had it imprisoned  and in a lock down. It took awhile. It didn’t happen overnight. It was the sheer   desperation and   strong   desire to free myself from whatever had me mentally paralyzed.  It was months later when  I slowly felt the fog begin to lift. Gradually the hollow feeling in the gut, the painful anxiety and trepidation that filled my body without  letup all slowly dissipated. Because I feared that whatever  brought me down would come back and bite me. I kept on walking.   I have to say I really never had many down days in my life.  I’ve suffered my losses and hurts like everyone else but  I never had experienced the depth of the pain that made me scared, hopeless and helpless.

It was short time later when I had my old self again. My mood became  hopeful.  I could even feel a little cheery knowing that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. From that day forward, I knew that the secret of staying focused and upbeat was for me to walk everyday. And what lesson I learned from this was to reflect on what was going on in my life that preceded these  dark symptoms of depression. I believe that symptoms of depression don’t just fall out of the sky–out of the blue.  The way my thinking  continuously  cycled   negative thoughts,    producing  negative feelings,   and these  gradually had me imprisoned and behind the bars of my fears and isolation from others.  A gradual distancing my family and friends was  the result of a deepening  separation from everything that previously made  my daily life pleasant and hopeful.

I also have written about this fact in our recent publication, I’ll do it when I feel better.