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Short Term Success vs. Long Term Success

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Short term success looks a little different than long term success.

The key to short term success is INTENSITY. The key to long term success is CONSISTENCY.

Short Term Success

I’m also a member of AA and a strong suggestion to newcomers there is they do a 90 in 90 – i.e. attend 90 meetings in 90 days. There are plenty of online meetings available for Depressed Anonymous found at Online Depressed Anonymous Meetings. I attend meetings from the DA group Journeys of Hope and they host 23 meetings weekly (see the link for information).

Say you first join DA at a real low point in your depression. You may be in need of some intensive action on your part so you may need to do a 90 in 90. Only you can make that call. I would suggest you initially commit to a 7 in 7 – just a week where you attend a meeting daily. At the end of those 7 days you can decide to extend it the full 90 days.

Long Term Success

OK you are past the initial crisis of being in the pit of depression. Things are better than they once were. Don’t rest on your laurels. You must maintain your DA sobriety (i.e. sanity).

Suggestions for the long term:

  • Determine for yourself the minimum number of DA meetings you are going to go to each week. This must be a distinct number that is achievable. Don’t say “I’ll go to as many meetings as I can”. How will you know that you achieved that?

    For me, when I am doing well the commitment is two 12 Step meetings a week (either AA or DA for me). Come hell or high water I will make that number of meetings a week.

    If I am off-center or experiencing some real difficulties in my life that minimum grows to four 12 Step meetings weekly. If my ass falls off I’ll put it in a bag and go to a meeting.
  • At every meeting you go to you need to share. It doesn’t need to be sharing at depth – just claim your seat. Say your name and that you are recovering from depression. If you don’t feel that well say your name and that you are struggling with depression. Never say you suffer from depression because when you say that you SUFFER FROM DEPRESSION.
  • Start doing service at the meetings you attend. If an online meeting volunteer to be the timekeeper. Volunteer to read from recovery literature. Volunteer to chair a meeting. If it is a face to face meeting volunteer to be the greeter.
  • Get a sponsor and communicate with that sponsor frequently. How frequently you communicate with them is a mutual agreement between you and your sponsor.
  • Communicate with other members of DA. Call people on the contact list. Join the DA WhatsApp group and participate in the chat. If you go to a face to face meeting meet for coffee or lunch.
  • Work the Steps with your sponsor or co-sponsorship group. You need to look within and participate with others to lock that recovery into your brain.

Achieve your recovery goals whether they are short term or long term.

Yours in recovery, Bill R

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Starting a Depressed Anonymous face to face meeting

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Perhaps you wish that there was a face to face Depressed Anonymous meeting where you live. There is a solution to that – start one! Here are some pointers that I can share from my experience starting a face to face meeting in my area.

  1. Find another person willing to commit to start a meeting with you
    Of course you could start the meeting on your own it is helpful to share the load with others.
  2. You and others make a time commitment to run the meeting
    I would suggest that make a commitment to yourselves that for a period of time (3-6 months) that even if no one shows up you will run the meeting. This meeting is starting through the force of your and your partners will. You’re not committing forever but rather for that time period. As that time period comes to an end hold a group conscience meeting with the group to determine its future.
  3. Find a place and time to host your meeting
    It could be a church basement, a recovery center, or any place you can secure a room at low or no cost. I recommend that you have a recurring day and time for your meeting so that people can expect you to be there. A meeting that doesn’t have a set time and place is very difficult to build support over time.Try to find a place with a very low cost as you will need to front the money to pay for the first month/week. Some recovery centers price on a sliding scale – the recovery center by me wanted 50% of your 7th tradition contributions. The benefit of this approach is that there is no up front expenses and while your membership is small in the beginning the cost of the room will also be small.
  4. Schedule a launch date/time
    Pretty self explanatory.
  5. Do public outreach
    Announce the meeting at other 12 Step meetings. Although technically you will be violating that other fellowship’s traditions mention that death by suicide is the 10th leading cause of death in the US and many people with addictions are also depressed.

    I collected all the mental health provider addresses from the web portal for my health insurance. You will be sending them a physical letter (the email address will not be posted on the web portal). Initially when I performed that search I found over 200 entries – that amount of postage was more than I was willing to front. I looked at the data and decided that I would only send a letter to those addresses with two or more mental health providers and that list was approximately 45 – a much more bearable financial burden.

    Get the postal addresses of the rehab centers in your community and send letters to them as well.

    Get the addresses of your local county mental health offices and send letters there as well.

    Find community centers and businesses with physical bulletin boards that would be willing to post your flyer announcing your meeting.
  6. Decide on a format for your meeting
    Are you going to be a meeting where you read from Depressed Anonymous literature? Or is the meeting going to be a topic discussion meeting? If it is going to be a literature meeting you will need to have at least one copy of the literature you will be using (textbook, workbook, Higher Thoughts for Down Days, other).

    As your group collects 7th Tradition donations you may want to buy additional copies so that multiple attendees could read.

    Write a first draft of the chairperson script which at the least should start with a moment of silence or a short prayer, reading the 12 Steps of Depressed Anonymous, then describing the format of the meeting.
  7. Have and run the first meeting
    Read your chairperson script. Run the meeting. The meeting doesn’t need to be perfect.
  8. As your commitment time draws to a close hold a group conscience discussion
    As stated in number 2 above you (and partners) decided to run the meeting regardless of support. As that time comes to an end you must be ready to turn the fate of the meeting over to the group. Should the group continue? Who can volunteer to lead meetings? Does the format of the meeting work for the group?

That’s the guide as a nutshell. Don’t take the guide as the only way to do it – it is merely one way that happened to work for me. If it doesn’t fit your needs tailor it to your needs.

Yours in recovery, Bill R

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DBT Grounding Techniques – Part 5 Putting It Into Use

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Part 5: Putting It All Together – Creating Your Grounding Ritual

You’ve now explored Mindfulness, Distress Tolerance, Emotion Regulation, and Interpersonal Effectiveness—each offering powerful tools to help you stay grounded in difficult moments. But real-life challenges don’t always fit neatly into one category. That’s why the final step is about combining these techniques into a structured grounding ritual that you can turn to whenever you need stability.

When emotions overwhelm you, drawing from all four DBT modules can create a powerful and structured grounding ritual. Combining these practices helps you address the physical, emotional, and relational aspects of distress, guiding you toward calmness and control.

By integrating skills from all four DBT modules, you can create a personalized approach to managing distress, regulating emotions, and staying present—even in the toughest moments. Let’s explore how to bring it all together.

Step 1: Pause and Breathe Deeply (Mindfulness)

Start by grounding yourself in the present moment. Mindfulness creates the mental space needed to approach the situation with clarity.

How to Practice:

  • Take a deep breath, inhaling for 4 counts, holding for 4, and exhaling for 6.
  • Visualize your breath as a wave, washing tension out of your body.
  • If your thoughts wander, gently guide them back to your breath without judgment.

Why It Works:
This activates your parasympathetic nervous system, calming your body and quieting your mind so you can think more clearly.

Step 2: Splash Cold Water on Your Face (Distress Tolerance)

Engage your body to interrupt the cycle of emotional overwhelm. TIPP skills are especially useful for regaining control in the moment.

How to Practice:

  • Use cold water, hold an ice cube, or place a cold compress on your forehead or cheeks.
  • Pair this with paced breathing to further calm your system.

Why It Works:
The temperature change triggers your dive reflex, reducing heart rate and calming the body. This brings you back to the present.

Step 3: Challenge the Thought Causing Overwhelmedness (Emotion Regulation)

Once your body feels calmer, examine the thoughts driving your emotional reaction.

How to Practice:

  • Ask yourself: “What triggered this feeling? Is it based on facts or assumptions?”
  • Use the “Check the Facts” technique to reframe exaggerated or unhelpful thoughts.
  • Example: Replace “I can’t handle this” with “I’m feeling overwhelmed, but I can take it one step at a time.”

Why It Works:
Shifting your perspective helps you address emotions logically, reducing their intensity and making them easier to manage.

Step 4: Communicate Using DEAR MAN (Interpersonal Effectiveness)

If another person is involved in the situation, use DEAR MAN to express yourself effectively and maintain the relationship.

How to Practice:

  • Describe the situation: “When you didn’t respond to my message…”
  • Express your feelings: “…I felt hurt and unsure if you were upset with me.”
  • Assert what you need: “I’d appreciate a quick reply, even if it’s just to say you’ll respond later.”
  • Reinforce the benefit: “This way, I’ll know everything’s okay between us.”

Why It Works:
Clear, calm communication reduces misunderstandings and fosters connection, even in emotionally charged moments.

Creating a Flow for Your Grounding Ritual

  1. Pause and Focus (Mindfulness):
    Take 1-2 minutes to ground yourself through breathing or observing your surroundings with the Five-Senses exercise.
  2. Shift Your Physical State (Distress Tolerance):
    Use a temperature-based TIPP skill or self-soothing technique to calm your body. Radical Acceptance of the situation may assist now or at the next stage in this flow.
  3. Examine and Adjust Your Thoughts (Emotion Regulation):
    Check the facts or use opposite action to address unhelpful emotional patterns.
  4. Engage With Others Mindfully (Interpersonal Effectiveness):
    If the situation involves another person, use DEAR MAN or FAST to maintain your boundaries and self-respect while fostering understanding.

Example in Practice:

Scenario: You’re feeling overwhelmed after receiving criticism from a colleague.

  1. Mindfulness: Step outside for a moment, take a deep breath, and focus on the sensation of the air against your skin.
  2. Distress Tolerance: Hold a cold water bottle against your wrists to calm your body.
  3. Emotion Regulation: Ask yourself, “Was their criticism factual, or am I interpreting it as a personal attack?” Reframe the thought: “This feedback is an opportunity to grow, not a judgment of my worth.”
  4. Interpersonal Effectiveness: Use DEAR MAN to address the issue with your colleague:
    • Describe: “When you shared your feedback earlier…”
    • Express: “…I felt caught off guard and a bit overwhelmed.”
    • Assert: “I’d like to understand more so I can improve.”
    • Reinforce: “This will help me meet expectations better in the future.”

Why This Works

By integrating techniques from all four DBT modules, you address the emotional, physical, and relational aspects of distress. This holistic approach helps you regain control, navigate challenges effectively, and build resilience over time.

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Using Positive Psychology to Manage Depression

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Some of us rebel at the thought of a Higher Power and subsequently the whole 12 Step program. I personally believe Depressed Anonymous is the best thing to manage my depression long term but I want people to heal and have hope regarding depression. Healing is even more important than the 12 Steps. With that in mind here is some free training available for Positive Psychology.

  1. Foundations of Positive Psychology Specialization led by Martin Seligman, Ph.D., the founder of positive psychology. https://www.coursera.org/specializations/positivepsychology
  2. The Science of Well-Being from Yale, available on Coresera. https://www.coursera.org/learn/the-science-of-well-being?
  3. BerkeleyX: The Science of Happiness from Ucal Berkeley. https://www.edx.org/learn/happiness/university-of-california-berkeley-the-science-of-happiness
  4. BerkeleyX: The Foundations of Happiness at Work written talking about work. https://www.edx.org/learn/happiness/university-of-california-berkeley-the-foundations-of-happiness-at-work
  5. Develop Creating and Happy Mindset from Udemy. https://www.udemy.com/course/rise-in-love/?couponCode=ST5MT020225BUS
  6. A Life of Happiness and Fulfillment hosted by Coursera. https://www.coursera.org/learn/happiness
  7. APA: Positive Psychology https://www.edx.org/learn/psychology/american-psychological-association-positive-psychology
  8. Positive Psychology hosted by Coursera. https://www.coursera.org/learn/positive-psychology

NOTE – These were free on the day this post was written. That may change over time.

The goal here was to provide alternative ways of healing from depression. This is for informational purposes only. Depressed Anonymous is not endorsing nor recommending any of these courses.

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DBT Grounding Techniques – Part 4 Interpersonal Effectiveness

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Part 4: Interpersonal Effectiveness – Communicating with Clarity and Confidence

Relationships can be one of the biggest sources of both support and stress. When emotions run high, it’s easy to fall into patterns of people-pleasing, avoidance, or conflict—especially when struggling with anxiety or depression. Interpersonal Effectiveness teaches you how to communicate your needs clearly, set healthy boundaries, and maintain relationships without sacrificing your well-being.

By practicing these skills, you can navigate tough conversations with more confidence and build stronger, more balanced connections. Let’s explore some grounding techniques to help you stay present and intentional in your interactions.

Interpersonal effectiveness helps you navigate relationships in a way that balances your own needs with the needs of others. It focuses on building and maintaining healthy connections, while staying true to your values and boundaries. Below are grounding practices that help manage emotional intensity during interactions and promote balanced, effective communication.

1. DEAR MAN: A Framework for Effective Communication

DEAR MAN is a structured approach to expressing your needs clearly and calmly while maintaining relationships and reducing anxiety.

How to Practice:

  1. Describe
    • Start by stating the situation objectively, without emotion or judgment.
    • Example: “When you borrowed my book and didn’t return it on time…”
  2. Express
    • Share your feelings using “I” statements.
    • Example: “I felt frustrated because I needed it for my class.”
  3. Assert
    • Clearly state what you need or want.
    • Example: “I need you to return borrowed items by the agreed time.”
  4. Reinforce
    • Highlight the benefits of meeting your request.
    • Example: “This way, we can avoid misunderstandings in the future.”
  5. Mindful
    • Stay focused on your goal during the conversation, even if emotions arise.
    • Use phrases like “I understand your point, but…” to stay on track.
  6. Appear Confident
    • Speak with a steady voice, make eye contact, and avoid apologizing excessively.
  7. Negotiate
    • Be willing to find a middle ground if needed.
    • Example: “If Tuesday isn’t possible, can you let me know in advance?”

2. FAST: Upholding Self-Respect in Interactions

FAST is a tool to maintain your self-respect and integrity while engaging with others. It’s particularly useful for setting boundaries or navigating difficult conversations.

How to Practice:

  1. Fair
    • Be fair to yourself and the other person. Avoid self-blame or being overly harsh.
    • Example: “I understand you had a busy week, but I still need to address this.”
  2. Apologies
    • Avoid apologizing unnecessarily or for things beyond your control.
    • Example: Instead of saying, “I’m sorry for bringing this up,” say, “I’d like to discuss something important.”
  3. Stick to Values
    • Stay true to your core values, even if it feels uncomfortable.
    • Example: If honesty is important to you, say what needs to be said respectfully.
  4. Truthful
    • Be honest and avoid exaggerating or sugarcoating.
    • Example: Instead of saying, “You always do this,” say, “This has happened a few times, and it’s affecting me.”

3. Radical Acceptance: Letting Go of the Struggle

Radical acceptance is a practice of acknowledging and accepting situations as they are, without trying to fight reality. This can provide grounding in interpersonal conflicts or when emotions feel overwhelming.

How to Practice:

  1. Acknowledge the Situation:
    • Identify what is happening without judgment.
    • Example: “This person has different priorities than I do right now.”
  2. Accept the Reality:
    • Say to yourself, “It is what it is. I can’t change this situation, but I can choose how I respond.”
  3. Release the Struggle:
    • Let go of the desire for things to be different. This doesn’t mean you condone the situation, but you stop resisting it emotionally.
    • Example: Instead of fixating on someone’s behavior, shift your focus to how you’ll manage your feelings.
  4. Practice Self-Compassion:
    • Remind yourself that acceptance takes time and effort. Be kind to yourself if it feels difficult.

Combining Practices

These techniques can be used individually or together for more complex situations:

  1. Use DEAR MAN to effectively express your needs during a tough conversation.
  2. Apply FAST to maintain your self-respect and boundaries, ensuring you stay true to yourself.
  3. Practice Radical Acceptance if the situation cannot be resolved or changed, helping you ground yourself and let go of unnecessary emotional tension.
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Understanding Morning Blues: A Saddict’s Perspective

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I sometimes ask other people to write for the blog. Here is one such post.

Understanding Morning Blues: A Saddict’s Perspective

Mornings have always been the hardest part of the day for me. For years, waking up felt like dragging myself out of a dark pit, and some mornings, the effort seemed impossible. I’m Chris M., a member of Depressed Anonymous (DA) since June 2023. My journey into DA began after a three-year severe depressive episode that culminated in a crisis—a decision to end my pain. Thankfully, that decision resulted in my hospitalization under a 51/50 order, where I was diagnosed with complex PTSD (cPTSD), Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), and ADHD.

After 22 weeks of Partial Hospitalization Program (PHP) and Intensive Outpatient Program (IOP), I found solace in DA, and it’s here that I’ve come to call myself a Saddict—someone who struggles with and seeks to overcome the grip of depression. My interest in why mornings hit so hard led me to explore the biology and psychology of what we often refer to in DA as the “morning blues.”

This blog reflects my own research and lived experience, highlighting the factors that contribute to these morning struggles and offering strategies to cope with them. Continuity in approach has been a lifesaver for me, and I hope the insights shared here resonate with fellow Saddicts.

Why Are Mornings So Difficult?

Mornings are a challenge for many dealing with depression, and there are biological, psychological, and behavioral factors at play. By understanding these elements, we can identify strategies to make the start of the day less daunting. Here’s a breakdown:

  1. Disrupted Circadian Rhythms
    Depression often disrupts the body’s internal clock, leading to an imbalance in sleep-wake cycles. This can result in waking up feeling out of sync with the day ahead, amplifying feelings of lethargy and disorientation.
  2. Hormonal Fluctuations
    Cortisol, the body’s stress hormone, peaks in the morning as part of the natural waking process. For those with depression, this spike can feel overwhelming, triggering heightened anxiety or emotional distress.
  3. Sleep Disturbances
    Sleep is rarely restful for those of us battling depression. Insomnia, fragmented sleep, or oversleeping all contribute to starting the day in a state of exhaustion, making the simplest tasks seem insurmountable.
  4. Low Energy and Motivation
    Fatigue is a hallmark of depression. Combine that with a lack of motivation, and the effort to get out of bed can feel like climbing a mountain.
  5. Negative Thought Patterns
    Mornings often bring a flood of ruminative thoughts—anticipatory anxiety about the day ahead or harsh self-criticism. These thought patterns deepen the sense of dread many of us experience upon waking.
  6. Reduced Exposure to Natural Light
    Especially during darker months, a lack of sunlight can affect serotonin levels, a key neurotransmitter for mood regulation. This deficit contributes to a deeper sense of gloom in the mornings.
  7. Lack of Morning Routine
    Without structure, mornings can feel aimless, reinforcing feelings of inadequacy or low productivity. A chaotic start often sets the tone for the rest of the day.

The Role of Brain Chemistry

As someone with a keen interest in how brain chemistry impacts depression, I found the following factors particularly compelling:

  • Cortisol Awakening Response (CAR): For individuals with depression, the natural morning cortisol surge can feel like being hit by an emotional freight train. This exaggerated response compounds feelings of stress and anxiety.
  • Serotonin Levels: Serotonin plays a vital role in mood stabilization. Low levels, often linked to depression, are particularly problematic in the morning when the body transitions from sleep to wakefulness.
  • Dopamine Dysregulation: Dopamine drives motivation and reward. Reduced dopamine activity can make starting the day feel pointless, further fueling depressive inertia.
  • Melatonin Imbalance: High melatonin levels in the morning can lead to grogginess and make it difficult to engage with the day.
  • Inflammatory Response: Chronic low-grade inflammation, common in depression, contributes to fatigue and malaise, often more pronounced upon waking.
  • Glucose Metabolism Disruption: Poor regulation of blood sugar can cause irritability and low energy, particularly noticeable in the morning.
  • Thyroid Hormone Imbalances: Thyroid dysfunctions, such as hypothyroidism, slow metabolism and exacerbate morning fatigue.

Strategies to Alleviate Morning Blues

While mornings are a struggle, there are evidence-based approaches that can help us Saddicts face the day with a bit more ease. These techniques have been instrumental in my own journey:

  1. Radical Acceptance
    Instead of fighting against the difficulty of mornings, practice acknowledging them without judgment. Accepting “what is” can reduce the additional emotional toll of wishing things were different.
  2. Opposite Action
    When every fiber of your being wants to stay in bed, challenge yourself to do the opposite. Even small actions, like sitting up or stepping into sunlight, can help disrupt the depressive inertia.
  3. Morning Routine
    Creating a structured morning routine can provide a sense of purpose. Include small wins like making your bed, journaling, or sipping a comforting cup of tea.
  4. Exposure to Natural Light
    Open your curtains or step outside to soak in natural light. This can help regulate serotonin and improve your mood.
  5. Movement
    Gentle physical activity, like stretching or a short walk, can boost endorphins and energize you for the day ahead.
  6. Nutrition
    Start the day with a balanced meal to stabilize blood sugar levels and provide energy. Including protein, healthy fats, and whole grains can make a noticeable difference.
  7. Mindfulness and Grounding Exercises
    Use techniques like deep breathing, body scans, or grounding exercises to center yourself and reduce morning anxiety.

A Continuity of Approach

Mornings are hard, but the strategies above can make them less so. As Saddicts, we know that continuity is key—whether it’s sticking to a routine, practicing DBT techniques, or simply showing up for ourselves each day. Recovery isn’t about perfection; it’s about persistence. If you’re struggling with morning blues, know that you’re not alone, and there are tools and a community here to support you.

Yours,
Chris M.

Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) is a form of cognitive-behavioral therapy that combines acceptance and change strategies. Originally created for borderline personality disorder, DBT has proven effective for treating depression, anxiety, PTSD, and other conditions involving intense emotions. It focuses on developing skills in four key areas: mindfulness, emotional regulation, distress tolerance, and interpersonal effectiveness, helping individuals build resilience and improve their quality of life.

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The Real Deal

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One of my favorite TV shows is the Antique Roadshow. Every piece of furniture, painting, pottery, etc., brought to the show, has its own unique history. Each piece is appraised as to its present value by professional art dealers. That is the basis of the show, to help people discover how much that old letter, old painting or anything else that they bring to the show. seeking its worth. They can discover if their painting is an original, the real deal, or just a copy, or even a forgery. It is rare that an original masterpiece is ever discovered. Even so, there are times when a very valuable piece is discovered. People who come to show their articles, know that they can at least find out if they have something of value.

In ancient Rome, there were many sculptors, who sculpted pieces of artistic beauty. At times, when a sculptor’s chisel took too much granite off his work of art, he would cover his mistake with wax. So, if an artist wanted to sell his piece of art, it had to be noted that the piece was sincere, that is, without wax. No covering up mistakes.

So when I say that I am sincere, I am telling you that I am telling the truth. I am telling you that there is no coverup in what I am saying. (sine cera in Latin = without wax). In other words, it’s the real deal.

In our recovery program, Depressed Anonymous, we thrive by being sincere. We learn that it is when we admitted that we were powerless over depression and that our lives had become unmanageable, that we began to thrive and freed ourselves from the prison of depression.

Please come and join us in this Depressed Anonymous Fellowship. It is here where we can share our past mistakes and shortcomings – and our strengths – no more wax jobs – and find peace abd strength with folks just like ourselves.

DEPRESSED ANONYMOUS
Our website at DepressedAnonymous.org, will provide you with all necessary information, directing you to our online daily ZOOM meetings. We offer two meetings a day. You are always welcome!

HUGH S., for the DA Fellowship

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So, I admit that I am depressed? Now what do I do?

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“The first thing that I would do, would be to check out our Depressed Anonymous website @depresedanon.com. It is Here that you will be able to participate every day, with people just like yourself, who are seeking hope, and healing. This mutually supportive fellowship will lead you out of the prison of your depression and open your life up to hope, healing, and lasting friendships.

Even though we have a need to be by ourselves, and stay apart from human contact, we also have a need to be in contact with others. For to be in contact with others means that we will have to take some risks to make some choices. But when I am depressed and alone. I don’t have to make as many choices or take any action except to keep isolating myself and staying apart.”

Copyright (C) Depressed Anonymous Publications. (2002) Louisville, KY

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When you’re depressed all you’re interested in is survival – Dorothy Rowe

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THE ORIGINS of MISTRUST

I want to share with you how Dr. Fitzgibbons, a psychiatrist, provides examples how our lack of trust can originate in early childhood. Patterns of isolating behavior and negative thinking, grow strong in a home environment where the child is not loved and nurtured.

Dr. Fitzgibbons, tells us “that the seedbed of mistrust resides in childhood. Many times this lack of trust, of others and ourselves and the world around us, may have begun with the loss of a parent, sister, brother, or a close friend. A serious illness in a parent, sibling or oneself can be the cause of depression. Many times mistrust comes about because of an alcoholic parent so that a child never knows if a drunken loved one is coming home, or in an angry drunken stupor. Anger and rejection by caregivers and/or peers can also have an effect on the ability to trust. Parental divorce or separation can have an effect on a child. Also a cold distant, and unloving parent can have a negative effect on a child. Add to this, a legacy of mistrust and fear in the family will negatively influence a child. Finally, poverty may also be a cause of mistrust”

Brenda, (not her real name ) shares with us some of her own story:

“I have often reflected on how a lack of trust in myself and in others, had a crippling effect on my early childhood development. It was only until I began examining my own childhood, later in life, that I discovered reasons for my mistrust of others. I accomplished these discoveries by getting in touch with those early negative feelings that constantly bombarded my everyday thinking. Most of these early feelings remained unconscious and hidden, until I started to examine my childhood relationships, especially with those significant others who were my caregivers.”

By utilizing the Depressed Anonymous Workbook with its’ 12 STEP COMMENTARY, and questions, directed toward one’s early life experiences, special attention was centered on those caregivers and significant others in one’s family, who, charged with caregiving, to provide the child with the love that a child deserves. For many children, who grew up in a home environment, filled with anger, parental arguing, and violence, made it impossible for a child to defend themselves against such abuse, including mental, sexual, and physical abuse. Some children create fantasy worlds, some with imaginary friends, with whom they can confide in and feel secure in a home environment where chaos reigns.

In our Depressed Anonymous fellowship, we can begin to open up to group members, giving us that opportunity to share and trust, others, who are like ourselves. We happily discovered that we are now no longer alone. Most of us come to our program of recovery, looking to find help, and that welcome relief from the daily crippling burden of depression, which has forced us to isolate from others, believing that we are not good enough.

Earlier, Dr, Fitzgibbons has listed some of the major causes of our childhood depression, and we can resonate with them within our hearts and minds. And in your moments of personal quiet and reflection, celebrate who you are and not who others say you are.

So get a notebook, and begin to write down your answers to those questions in the DA Workbook, which hold meaning for your own personal life and recovery, to which you can relate. Share your DA Workbook with your therapist, sponsor or friends in Depressed Anonymous at the ZOOM meetings online, and/or face to face meetings.

So now, not only will you be a survivor, you will no longer be a victim of those circumstances, which made you believe that you were worthless, unlovable and unacceptable. Progress, not perfection.

By completing my Fourth Step inventory, it became possible to uncover those areas of my early life which made trusting an impossibility. As mentioned earlier, and later into my early adult life, it was my own spiraling downward, into the darkness of depression, the only thing that I could think of was my survival. I was desperate to stop the descent into the darkness and physical pain. I knew that I must get active, preventing my paralyzing desire to take comfort in sleep and shut out the world.

My life is very different now. I continue to take inventory of my life on a daily basis and I finally believe in myself and the Higher Power that has helped me believe that I have a purpose and a meaning for my life. I also believe in a power that is greater than myself and who continually leads me, everyday, on this wonderful journey of hope! Progress and not perfection.

TRUST IS A FEELING OF BEING SAFE IN RELATIONSHIPS AND IN LIFE.

HUGH S., FOR THE FELLOWSHIP