I’m listening to hits from the 1990’s and the song Hold On from Wilson Phillips came on. The lyrics are about an unhealthy relationship but the lyrics could easily be about my depression.

I just need to hold on for one more day and that day is today. When I keep in the day life becomes more manageable. Not easy but something I have a chance of managing. Let go of the past Bill. Let go of the future. Living is about being in the moment, the here and now.

I fall into the trap that I’m stuck feeling emotionally spent for now and for all time. My problem is not my emotions but rather the thoughts behind the emotions. I’m on the proverbial mental gerbil wheel of constantly thinking of my bad emotions. I even fell into it there. Are my emotions truly bad or am I judging them that way?

Hold onto the reality of the moment Bill. I have a roof over my head, I ate an hour ago. I showered with hot water. I am blessed and a beloved child of God. You, dear reader, are as well. Life may be difficult at the moment but HOLD ON!

Yours in recovery, Bill R